Mama Never Said There'd Be Days Like This!

My last entry was featured in a local Sacramento area blog review - ipsoSacto. Very cool. I doubt this one will make it though! I don't have anything witty or political to say. Well, O.K., I ALWAYS have something political I COULD say - being that there is so much political insanity going on here in the good ole Left Coast. But I'll likely refrain today and tomorrow. Tomorrow it will have been four years since losing our infant son to RSV and a doctor's ineptitude. Not wanting to invite a libel or slander lawsuit I'll refrain from more detail. Suffice it to say that some days it is harder to keep forgiving. I don't really completely blame the doctor - everything happened SO fast - he was only sick 20 hours or so. In the main, I decided long ago to just accept what had happened and to try not to drag anyone down into the misery and loss with me. Hurting someone else, even if it seems they might deserve it a little, doesn't really end up making you feel any better - though it may seem that way when you first think of it. The old adage, "Misery loves company," may be true to some extent, but I can tell you from personal experience it really doesn't take away your pain in any way. When you lose a child, nothing is going to make you feel any better except the Creator who made you and the passing of time. What kind of stinks though, is that while nothing can really make you feel much better, LOTS of things can make you feel worse! Not very fair is it?
Anyway, here is a picture of our Joshua. Please cherish the time you have with your loved ones. You really don't know how long you will have them in this life. Bad things CAN happen to anyone. The sooner we embrace that truth without becoming paranoid or miserable, the easier it will be to weather the storms that evetually must come into every life. And maybe, just maybe, we will have prepared ourselves a little better so that we can deal with them with more grace and be able to help other loved ones walk through it as well. Coming to terms with loss is a complicated and personal process but it is the only way to stay sane and spiritually strong in the aftermath.